A trajectory to a state of defeat My mind maligned by red mist And an oversight of judgement leaves me beat As I dwell on all the chances missed Though you insist it isn’t what it seems This cloud obscures my vision Matters filtered into extremes And reason’s gone into remission I can’t pull myself away I can’t push myself towards it The unlit passage toward liberation Where’s that bright light that you promised? Blinded by altruist motivations Is it me who’s being dishonest? I can’t pull myself away I can’t push myself towards it These feelings won’t be kept at bay But these thoughts can’t see the light of day 'Cause the truth comes second and the pain comes first When prosperity beckoned I was at my worst Today is where my thoughts have brought me Tomorrow is shaped by what they’ve taught me A history of failure, it taints my lucidity Pin it on my psychomorbidity There’s a hunger-eternal though you’ll never flourish Acting as your own adversary This dune which was a tropical forest Nothing but a memory cemetery I can’t pull myself away I can’t push myself towards it These feelings won’t be kept at bay But these thoughts can’t see the light of day 'Cause the truth comes second and the pain comes first When prosperity beckoned I was at my worst Today is where my thoughts have brought me Tomorrow is shaped by what they’ve taught me A history of failure, it taints my lucidity Pin it on my psychomorbidity Orbiting your spiritual gravity All I need is a place of placidity ‘Cause the ale evolves my personality It raises me to a state of normality I live with my failures, a life of depravity Pin it on me ‘Cause the truth comes second, and the pain comes first When prosperity beckoned I was at my worst Today is where my thoughts have brought me Tomorrow is shaped by what they’ve taught me A history of failure, it taints my lucidity Pin it on my psychomorbidity