Whenever I woke up at 8 o'clock in the night

I always think of my dead friends who have left before me

Often I remembered great talks and memories about them

Before I realize they'll never come back

Sometimes I wish my leg got amputated

So I can feel how does it feel to have a real loss

'cause these wankers always told this to me

\"oi you fat cunt, a lot people got worse than your arse\"

Time running wild and I admit they're fuckin right

My selfish gene got bigger than my balls

I chewed too much crap on my mouth and got fat

Before I forgot my friends are fuckin dead

I sleep with warm blanket named depression

Taking many doses of ASMR session

So I can throw away the fact that I'm just unlucky

That they're finally gone while I am still walking

Truth be told my depression doesn't mean anything

'cause I just care about myself instead of them families

Who lost their son and daughter just too early

I admit I lost my sense of humanity

If I could wish one thing

I wish I could see my real reflection in the mirror

I am an ugly man and so I am an ugly soul

I would've expected myself to fall into a world full of regret

I wish I could see my real reflection in the pond

And then drown myself to the bottom

I would've expected myself to fall into a world full of regret

From our first phone call I already know something

That you're scared of me and everything and anything

It's okay 'cause it's normal as it does

I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't love either

You can leave the table anytime you want

I'll pay the food and the time that you've wasted

You don't need to say farewell and you don't have to

'cause I can't say it to them while God took all of them

Help yourself, and get yourself a new boyfriend

Fuck him, tear him apart, whatever you want

'cause I don't care, I just need you to remind yourself

Be grateful every time you breathe

'cause you can't have it all

The weekend start today

All of them floating bodies are going away

Drink to comfort your dismay

Your delightful sorrow is always meant to stay

Hold my hand, I'll lead the way out

From this haunting display