I can’t help it

Spent the day in my bed again

Maybe I’m too selfish

For all of the things I can’t change

I know it’s no good for me

To sit and bottle the pain away

No wonder why I’m so shook to see

That these days somethings don’t feel the same

That’s why I still get scared if I don’t open up

I still get scared you’ll leave me broken but

It’s not that you would

Though I know that you could

I just get shook that I’m not good enough

So tired of asking

Like there’s gotta many ways

To say what I never say

Never say it regardless

Like I’m overdue better days

God damn for heavens sake

Cos who would want a skinny figure that’s only so easily triggered

Wish my arms was bigger and try see the bigger picture

Made a bet with myself

That I’m gone better myself

Like nobody else could I ever tell

Cos I still get scared if I don’t open up

I still get scared you’ll leave me broken but

It’s not that you would

Though I know that you could

I just get shook that I’m not good enough

I still get scared if I don’t hold you right

And I’d lose my head if you left tonight

It’s not that you would

Though I know that you could

I just get shook that I’m not good enough

Cos this is nothing like the fucking movies

Maybe if I took a second to consider all the feelings running through me

I would finally come to see

All I am is all I need

And that the sadness that done filled me up

Was everything but me

And maybe if I took the time

I mean, really took the time

If I could take my own advice

That I give every other life

Then I’d finally understand

All I need is where I stand

And that the sadness that done filled me up has made me who I am

Cos I still get scared if I don’t open up

I still get scared you’ll leave me broken but

It’s not that you would

Though I know that you could

I just get shook that I’m not good enough

I still get scared if I don’t hold you right

And I’d lose my head if you left tonight

It’s not that you would

Though I know that you could

I just get shook that I’m not good enough

Cos I just get shook

Yes I still get shook

Why do I get shook

Cos I just get shook