The barren walls are not moving

On cloud nine, there's no ceiling

In the surface of my underlying fright

Immersed in your light

If I leave, all of this behind

Will it even make a sound?

If loneliness is where I'll be bound

There's silence in this deafening crowd

I find myself searching

I find myself reaching

I find myself grasping

Waiting for someone or something I don't know

Is it hard to know? (Is it hard to know?)

Cause I need it so

Is it hard to know

What am I even looking for?

Is it hard to know

Cause I need it so

Is it hard to know

What am I even looking for?

Promises are make believe

To get me through the night

But there's nothing there when the sun goes down

And I'm all laid up, thinking who the hell am I supposed to be this time

I find myself searching

I find myself reaching

I find myself grasping

Waiting for someone or something I don't know

Is it hard to know?

Cause I need it so

Is it hard to know

What am I even looking for?

Is it hard to know

Cause I need it so

Is it hard to know

What am I even looking for?

I tried jumping from the sky

I tried chasing neon lights

I tried trusting strangers overnight

I tried bottling up the lies

I tried I tried and I'm terrified

Oh I swear I tried