anxiety, coffee and panic attacks

i would tell how it hurts

but sadly

no one asks

so i walk like a zombie

and talk and go to the laundry

and watch my clothes getting dirty

while i wash them

this place is not what they told to me

this whole in my heart just dont want to leave

my tendency is healing

but i got the feeling

that this time i just cannot do it

(do it)

the walls fall around the block

i get cut from all the outdoors

publicity for anxiety

small talk about the cheating ones

ill deal with the smoke beating in my lungs

this place is not what they told to me

this whole in my heart just dont want to leave

my tendency is healing

but i got the feeling

that this time i just cannot do it

(do it)

and then the world became more slowly

i need someone to told me

when its time to close the windows

so nobody could see my hurts and healings

my blackouts and ceilings

my move fowards and wilings

then chokers and the beatings

will somebody just stay here?

(STAY!)

please!

I dont knew it back then

i think im about to snap then

(BECAUSE!)

this place is not what they told to me

this whole in my heart just dont want to leave

my tendency is healing

but i got the feeling

that this time i just cannot do it

(do it)

doooooooo

something

pleeeeeaseeee!

(please)