People tell me that I would be loved but I think they cannot feel me

Its a harsh fact that I keep running away from my reality

Its also the thing that keeps me awake and prevents me from me going to sleep

And all the things still haunts me in my bad dreams

Now do you ask me I just dunno what to do

Because nobody has any idea what Ive been going through

And I am not as good as I think and that is the fucking truth

Nobody even cares or loves me I just dunno what to do shoot

Yo I could still remember the first time that I made a track

Because of you man I decided to post songs and make raps

The first song was about we were only together for 3 months damn

That time was like a flash that is so motherfucking god damn fast

But the pity was our time didnt last

Told I would take 100 photos of you but I only did 51 damn

So now I dont know what the future may be

All I know is I now have a cruel reality

Im stuck in the dark trying to find my light

Lost in the day haunted by the night

Running from the past but it wont let me go

Trying to heal but its a long road I know

These scars on my heart theyre cutting so deep

Memories of you they wont let me go to sleep

Im trapped in my mind searching for the truth

But all I find is this broken youth

They told me Id find peace but Ive yet to see a sign

Stuck between who I am and the past I left behind

These nights are so long Im fighting thoughts I cant ignore

Reality keeps knocking and Im tired of keeping score

People ask me how Im doing I just tell em Im fine

But inside Im sinking lost in the mess of my mind

Ive been searching for myself but Im scared of whats true

The mirror shows someone now I dont even recognize dude

I remember the first verse I wrote like it was just yesterday

Thought itd heal the pain but it just wont let it go away

Three months with you man I thought it would not last

But times a thief and it took all that we had so fast

I promised Id take a hundred photos to hold tight

But only made it halfway like so many things in my life

Now Im sitting here wondering what the future holds for me

Trying to make sense of this harsh reality

Im tired of the fight tired of the pain

Tired of the cycle its always the same

The voices in my head keep pulling me down

But Im still here just trying not to drown

Maybe someday Ill find a way out

But right now Im lost in the shadow of doubt

If I could rewind Id hold on to you

But the past is gone and theres nothing I can do

Im stuck in the dark trying to find my light

Lost in the day haunted by the night

Running from the past but it wont let me go

Trying to heal but its a long road I know

These scars on my heart theyre cutting so deep

Memories of you they wont let me go to sleep

Im trapped in my mind searching for the truth

But all I find is this broken youth